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Mania Symptoms

Mania symptoms may include excessive happiness, excitement, irritability, restlessness, increased energy, less need for sleep, racing thoughts, high sex drive, and a tendency to make grand and unattainable plans.

Depression Symptoms

Depression symptoms may include sadness, anxiety, irritability, loss of energy, uncontrollable crying, change in appetite causing weight loss or gain, increased need for sleep, difficulty making decisions, and thoughts of death or suicide.

What have you learned today?

i am obsessed with myself in a way that
a cat paws a mouse, injuring it, but always letting it live.
derailed and under the influence
franticly safe until killed finally feels better than the scramble.

Prey and be preyed on.
Take and be taken.
a constant pull,
i watch my own actions
after i make them
while i make them
downplaying consequence for invincibility
accepting invincibility as indifference
until emotions are no longer the Gods inside me
battling while the mortals take cover.

Never get up before noon

"WHEN YOU LEAVE YOUR TYPEWRITER YOU LEAVE YOUR MACHINE GUN AND THE RATS COME POURING THROUGH."

CHARLES BUKOWSKI, Notes of a Dirty Old Man

when this is your ideal man and you're 14 yrs old, you dont expect to grow up to marry an accountant or anyone, really…