this is mostly only when it's a good experience in meeting them; a handshake, a laugh, something to be shared.
but it's when i first meet someone who holds my interest, that my perceptions want them to stay exactly as they were in that moment.
all of it has to do with looks; yet not with looks at all.
i dont know why.
it has nothing to do with the attractiveness of the person; because when i remember, recall someone fondly, their exact look is what becomes most beautiful.
even if they get skinner or prettier or sassier or "better"; i'll almost always look at them and wish they were how i remember them, because, simply, they couldn't get better. they cant get better through looks. they were already there, to me. so when they've changed, it feels like i've been cheated.
that someone is going to look at them and not see exactly what i saw -- but more so, that i'm going to look at them and not see exactly what i saw. it's selfish, really, but maybe also flattering.
i have an affinity for the pure; one i can't seem to hold myself, yet find endearing in others.
