They don't play em
Much anymore but when they do ...
I lay in your bed with a new breathing problem
It's 13 pounds and lying directly on my lungs
your cat
I'm not complaining exactly, because it's little white paws are so cute and honestly I need to extra affection but
The whole breathing thing
It's better than not doing it
So I grab him
Like I want to grab you
But rated G.
And squeeze him under the red sheets while you're off at work.
See I don't have work because I quit my job a month ago, after 4 years, I quit my job after college
Being in your apartment in a suburb of Cleveland was as weird as the 4 years I spent after college feeling caught between stability and suffocation
I was a house wife for 7 days. Drove my Honda Civic to a nail salon because I had never been to one before.
Told them I was new in town.
That day, I stopped the movie, hit menu.
And created deleted scenes.
Cuz I've done crazy shit that mother could have easily told me not to do.
But that would have left me always wondering what if, about things that didn't even deserve a "what" in the first place.
She did my nails
And they looked like shit.
When you get home, you get high
When you get high, you let yourself get low.
I've never met anyone so lonely, yet so in love.
I
Never believe ppl love me.
But I believed you. and that was the first time since 2009, when, he told me the mark on his neck wasn't a hickie, but then she told me the sheets on his bed were also red. She was right, and the wine I would kill my brain with after was also a shade.
I don't know why you still wanted me. Even years later. I guess it doesn't really matter. But it would be better if you forgot about me after instead of before.
I don't blame them
For not knowing how to react to my chemical bonds.
Just
Know that before you say I love you, first, you should fuck it up way more than that.
